One Day At A Time

Let me start by saying that I have the most awesome friends. My phone rings and my email chimes all day and night with people checking in on me.

Today was a pretty good day. I took some meds last night and actually slept for the first time in days. Although, when it was time to get up this morning, I didn't so much want to! I was crazy busy at work today, I had a ride-along with someone from our claims team. That means, rather than being in the car by myself, driving from place to place, I had someone with me to entertain most of the day. I finished up pretty early though and was back in the office (yes, upstairs computer room) by about 3:00 to finish my paperwork and jump on a conference call.

I had a meeting tonight for Junior League, and just got home...so I haven't seen or talked to Tom all day, he's already in his room, asleep I guess. So I'm taking a few minutes to blog, then I have more work to do.

I made a decision today that I hope will help me get through this the best way I can. I realized, with some help, that I'm the only one that can decide how my day is going to go. I am going to make an effort to have a positive day, all day, every day.

I went to the sales office in my neighborhood today to talk with the lady who works there that sold us our house. She also is a Christian counselor and we talked about how I can make the effort every day to live my life for God and for me...or I can choose to be miserable and make it about Tom...well, I decided not to make it about Tom. We talked for a long time, we prayed together and laughed and cried. It was a great hour and I just dropped by to wish her a Happy Birthday!

Another thing I was told today was not to give him the satisfaction of feeling he made the right decision by feeding into him and being mean and nasty...that just will solidify the decision he made for him. I guess the best thing I can do is show him the best of me and let him see what he let go of. Maybe someday he'll figure it out.

So, from this point forward, I am taking back control of my emotions, my life and turning the negatives into positives as best I can. There still will be times of sadness, I'm sure. Lord knows, I'm not perfect, but I'm making the effort.

Anyway, tonight is just a quick update, it's all good and it's one day at a time.